Ladies, Let's Talk about Post-Pregnancy Boobs

Im talking about it.

I have scoured the internet looking for articles from other moms, blogs, anything, that talked about the effect of pregnancy and breastfeeding on our perky twins.

Or lack thereof.

I gained 60 lbs with my first daughter, and with that, came GINORMOUS knockers. Combine THAT with absolutely ZERO elasticity in my skin, and I was left with loose skin that resembled that of a set of testicles.

People close to me refer to my chest as "chesticles", in the most endearing way possible.

My clear lack of cleavage

After having Summer, I had a second daughter, Willow, and then started a fitness journey which has me in my BEST SHAPE POSSIBLE. Again, no good for my chest. I was left with stretched out SKIN with very little substance.

I am ALL about body confidence. Loving your body, embracing it, treating it with respect, nourishing it... But you can't squat and get perky boobs. Let's just BE REAL.

After having Summer, I gave up on bras, entirely. I gave up wearing feminine clothing and lived in my husband's clothes + sports bras. In fact, in the past 8 years, I have maybe worn a bra TWICE, and that was only because it was impossible to wear a sports bra with the outfit I NEEDED to wear for something formal.

I feel like I lost a bit of my feminine side. Don't get me wrong, I am all for having a small chest. In fact, I LOVED my small chest. I just didn't like how they sat, how they wrinkled in any sort of cup or bathing suit, folded over, etc., and left me having to ALTER what I wore, and restrained me from wearing what I really WANTED.

It was then my goal to have a breast augmentation, but I knew it would be a ways away.

WELL, the time CAME, and I officially went to have mine done YESTERDAY. {{ouch!}}

I am not going to get into the after effects so much until my NEXT blog post {{stay tuned!}}, but I did want to inform other moms or women in general about the process. I learned SO much, and questioned whether it was a good fit for me. I weighed my pros and cons. To be completely honest, I didn't want to let my small chest go, BUT I wanted the loose skin GONE. To have the loose skin gone, well, the skin had to be FILLED, leaving me being chestier than I might like.

It was a decision I thought about for SOME TIME, but then thought "You live once!" I mean WHY NOT? I have taken my life and MYSELF way too seriously for so long, we all die in the end, I may as well go after something I've wanted and wear the clothes I want, and embrace my womanity!

The night before shopping at Victoria's Secret! 

 I was SO excited the night before I went to Victoria's Secret ((BIG MISTAKE THOUGH)) to get a few no-wire bras for post surgery. Have you seen the post op bra they give you?! It's definitely not very pretty (not that you care initially) but I wanted to be prepared with a few girly + pretty bras. :P HOWEVER, they did not FIT. LOL But I have them for later at least?!

Waiting patiently in the waiting room

My biggest advice is REALIZE that this is a huge change to your body. I was scared! Nervous, you name it I was probably feeling it. Excited? Happy? Terrified?! My body was going to CHANGE, and even though I WANTED IT, it still was going to change. This body I had built up, taken care of, really grown FOND OF over the last few years, was going to be cut open and changed, just like that.

I will say, I don't regret it, at all. But you'll have to wait for my next post where I get into the emotions POST OP, the pain factor, what they look like, what to be prepared for, etc etc!

***By the way, we decided for me to go UNDER the muscle (as the skin was destroyed and going over the muscle would just cause more SAG-age), and I needed to go with a minimum 375CC GEL to fill the skin. I could have gone up to a 400, but again, I wanted to remain as SMALL as possible. 375 was even too high for what I was going for, but I took the doctors recommendation -- he didn't want me to walk out still struggling with the same issues post surgery, having an implant in, but saggy skin still underneath ((and that might even be worse)), so filling the skin entirely was my best option.***

I WILL be sharing pics in my updated blog posts too! {{Not total nudies, but you'll get the gist!}}

NOT what I expected, but still very happy!

To be continued!

xxx